On our walk back from dinner we got to watch the sunset, it was quite nostalgic for me, as the spot we were at is where Jason and I first watched the sunset 5.5 years ago. In that moment, I knew I had made the right choice in not bringing my laptop. I was thriving. My clients and business were surviving without me, and I was genuinely happy I got to enjoy such a special vacation with my family. I encourage everyone to take the time to unplug and enjoy life with those you love.
There isn’t a day that goes by that Sawyer isn’t testing the boundaries and making all of our hearts skip a beat with his fearless nature. He is always on the move running, tripping, falling, and climbing. Thankfully we haven’t had any serious injuries or trips to the ER.
The way your eyes light up, the big smile on your face and hearing you yell “ mom”, “mama”, “mom” when I walk in the door makes all the bad days worth it. It’s the best reminder that everything mommy and daddy do is for you, to ensure you have the best life.
This is when I reached out to my best friend, thinking i was just suffering from lingering baby blues. I told her I was feeling different, explained the rage, the overwhelming anxiety when I was going into certain situations and around certain people, I explained that I felt like I was ruining my marriage and I couldn’t figure out what was going on. We talked about the dreaded Postpartum Depression and how she thought I might have it.
I was so convinced that I was having a girl that I recorded this scene and sent it to Jason, telling him that if I found out we were having a boy this would be my EXACT reaction. No need to worry though because we were having a GIRL. we just had to be having a girl.