On our walk back from dinner we got to watch the sunset, it was quite nostalgic for me, as the spot we were at is where Jason and I first watched the sunset 5.5 years ago. In that moment, I knew I had made the right choice in not bringing my laptop. I was thriving. My clients and business were surviving without me, and I was genuinely happy I got to enjoy such a special vacation with my family. I encourage everyone to take the time to unplug and enjoy life with those you love.
This is when I reached out to my best friend, thinking i was just suffering from lingering baby blues. I told her I was feeling different, explained the rage, the overwhelming anxiety when I was going into certain situations and around certain people, I explained that I felt like I was ruining my marriage and I couldn’t figure out what was going on. We talked about the dreaded Postpartum Depression and how she thought I might have it.
I was so convinced that I was having a girl that I recorded this scene and sent it to Jason, telling him that if I found out we were having a boy this would be my EXACT reaction. No need to worry though because we were having a GIRL. we just had to be having a girl.